…written with everything I have left
I sent some vulgar reels to your brother, thinking it was just casual — but it wasn't okay.
It reflected badly on who I want to be, and I completely understand why it hurt you and disappointed you.
I'm disgusted with myself for it.
There's no excuse that makes it right, and I'm not looking for one.
I just want you to know — I see exactly why it was wrong,
and I take full responsibility for every part of it.
I feel horrible. Not because I got caught — but because I genuinely hurt someone I love,
and I let you down in a moment when you trusted me to be better.
You deserve someone who acts with care and love even when no one is watching.
I failed that. I know it. And it hurts me in a way I can't shake.
I'm so sorry.
Because losing you would mean losing my favourite part of life…
You make every single day feel lighter, warmer, and more worth waking up for.
Your smile is my favourite thing in the entire world — and I mean that with everything I have.
You've always believed in me, even when I didn't deserve it. That kind of love is rare, and I know it.
The way you talk, laugh, and care about things — it's my favourite sound and sight, all at once.
You're the last thought I want before I sleep and the first one when I wake up.
I don't want to lose you over my own stupidity. You're too precious for me to ever be careless with.
No words will ever feel big enough — but I mean every single one.